已有太久， 我没有用过华语来写博客。
今年的圣诞节， 我感受一个人过的滋味。从来不喜欢一个人的我， 突然，我变得好自我。
其实，我可以选择与别人度过， 但是我却懒散的躺在我的书房里。
我已有几天时间在书房里睡觉。感觉上， 有书伴我入眠，感觉比较安全。
我好缺乏安全感，自己待着，觉得孤单。
北京的日子好孤单。
我现在也深深感受到游子的心情了。
就让我过一个孤单的圣诞节吧。
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
I am going home for Chinese New Year
This week had been a week for low motivation , due to I feel really tired. Not sure whether is from emotion , or actually phycially feeling tired.
The workload for this week is really less. So , I spent sometime to explore which new website which is interesting. I realized I have a lot of website which have My ID , managing my own profile really took some of my time. Facebook , blogspot, huddle, linkedin( which have box.net, tripit and also amazon reading list),gmail , g calendar,hotmail , msn, yahoo, ...... So it pretty obvious , everyone will turn into IT user whether you like it or not :P
I had booked my ticket to go back to Malaysia during Chinese New Year. I guess this is the only incident which really make me happy. By the way , I miss home so much. :( I can go to KL, Penang , Ipoh and etc. hmm... home sweet home.
This week , I had chat with my brother , ee aik and and my aunt. This also makes me happy.
Why I should feel happy this week?
1. going home during chinese new year
2. chatting with my brother , my aunt and ee aik.
3. went out for japanese food with Oliver.
4 Going out with Danny , Meredith, and some lao wai to Hou Hai.
5. Have some virtual frinds like Saltuk from Turkey and Iara from Brazil.
6. will perform on Sat for clowning.
7. Shi and I going to Wang Fu Jin for christmas shopping.
8. I will be going to 798 and Pan Jia Yuan for my art trip.( christmas eve)
9. I have Ajisen Ramen with xiao ma, and have a nice chat on some business model.
10. CHRISTMAS IS COMING TO TOWN!!!!! HOORAY!!!!
I guess when sometimes you just feel moody , should really list down why you should feel happy lists. Then you will know how to appreciate life.
Chaos....
The workload for this week is really less. So , I spent sometime to explore which new website which is interesting. I realized I have a lot of website which have My ID , managing my own profile really took some of my time. Facebook , blogspot, huddle, linkedin( which have box.net, tripit and also amazon reading list),gmail , g calendar,hotmail , msn, yahoo, ...... So it pretty obvious , everyone will turn into IT user whether you like it or not :P
I had booked my ticket to go back to Malaysia during Chinese New Year. I guess this is the only incident which really make me happy. By the way , I miss home so much. :( I can go to KL, Penang , Ipoh and etc. hmm... home sweet home.
This week , I had chat with my brother , ee aik and and my aunt. This also makes me happy.
Why I should feel happy this week?
1. going home during chinese new year
2. chatting with my brother , my aunt and ee aik.
3. went out for japanese food with Oliver.
4 Going out with Danny , Meredith, and some lao wai to Hou Hai.
5. Have some virtual frinds like Saltuk from Turkey and Iara from Brazil.
6. will perform on Sat for clowning.
7. Shi and I going to Wang Fu Jin for christmas shopping.
8. I will be going to 798 and Pan Jia Yuan for my art trip.( christmas eve)
9. I have Ajisen Ramen with xiao ma, and have a nice chat on some business model.
10. CHRISTMAS IS COMING TO TOWN!!!!! HOORAY!!!!
I guess when sometimes you just feel moody , should really list down why you should feel happy lists. Then you will know how to appreciate life.
Chaos....
Friday, December 12, 2008
writing in the NanJing Airport
So one week passed, I never notice that my new job had really changed me.I start to like to write up something , take some photos , recording my life . read more books like Marley and Me, Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus, the world is flat, blue ocean strategy, and one more , The wealth of nations from Adam Smith.( My reading lists going to be more and more)
Although i have been so tired after work, but the tired is not different. This tired is the tired which brings you excitement.
There are always ups and down in your life. Life is just like a roller coaster. Although I just started to work in D4 project for two weeks, And i have been working from days to night , even for my weekend, but all this means a lot for me. It means that I am learning , it means that I am contributing, it means that I might get my reward in the sense from God , in the sense from my organization , in the sense from my boss.Now, I start to believe in team spirit, start to believe that there are actually nice people around the world, who are always be there to share, and to love and be loved.
I am now writing this blog in Nan Jing , a place whereby I been here two years ago. But now , when I come here again , I realized that i had changed. Grow up to be another person who lives in the society.
I am in Nanjing , Wuhu , for my work outstation . Meeting Moe,the vice president , of the Chery International ,and the GM of Middle East and North Africa region,first local Chinese car producer in China. He met a lot of people from all over the world , and have so much experience , in the sense of making his hardwork become valuable , not only for himself , but also for his family and the nation.I like to listen to his story , by the way I always like to listen to people's story, which makes me warm and more engage with this person.
His story even more motivate me to be a global marketer,i am really glad that my job now provides me a lot of learning in project management, art industry, the stakeholders management from the government, embassies, corporate, artists, galleries, museums, funding organization, all of this are from the world.and it also involves foreign affairs, marketing ,, Public relations, branding , customer relationship management,and advertisement.
So thank God for providing me everything.
I am ending my blog here before I fly to Guang Zhou and heading to Hong Kong for my outstation job and visa renewal.
Although i have been so tired after work, but the tired is not different. This tired is the tired which brings you excitement.
There are always ups and down in your life. Life is just like a roller coaster. Although I just started to work in D4 project for two weeks, And i have been working from days to night , even for my weekend, but all this means a lot for me. It means that I am learning , it means that I am contributing, it means that I might get my reward in the sense from God , in the sense from my organization , in the sense from my boss.Now, I start to believe in team spirit, start to believe that there are actually nice people around the world, who are always be there to share, and to love and be loved.
I am now writing this blog in Nan Jing , a place whereby I been here two years ago. But now , when I come here again , I realized that i had changed. Grow up to be another person who lives in the society.
I am in Nanjing , Wuhu , for my work outstation . Meeting Moe,the vice president , of the Chery International ,and the GM of Middle East and North Africa region,first local Chinese car producer in China. He met a lot of people from all over the world , and have so much experience , in the sense of making his hardwork become valuable , not only for himself , but also for his family and the nation.I like to listen to his story , by the way I always like to listen to people's story, which makes me warm and more engage with this person.
His story even more motivate me to be a global marketer,i am really glad that my job now provides me a lot of learning in project management, art industry, the stakeholders management from the government, embassies, corporate, artists, galleries, museums, funding organization, all of this are from the world.and it also involves foreign affairs, marketing ,, Public relations, branding , customer relationship management,and advertisement.
So thank God for providing me everything.
I am ending my blog here before I fly to Guang Zhou and heading to Hong Kong for my outstation job and visa renewal.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Sparks with IE
One of the goals in my life is to study MBA in London School of Economics. But recently, I have another choice.
I met a Russian, a guy from Venezuela , A girl from turkey. in the IE business school session.
The trend of business that they discussed , brings my attention.
This is the era , of age polarization, technology innovation , and also personal contribution.
IE is about diversity, entrepreneurial and innovation.
So..... This connects me with IE.
I met a Russian, a guy from Venezuela , A girl from turkey. in the IE business school session.
The trend of business that they discussed , brings my attention.
This is the era , of age polarization, technology innovation , and also personal contribution.
IE is about diversity, entrepreneurial and innovation.
So..... This connects me with IE.
The 4 hour workweek
Reading... is one of my hobbies.
I am recently reading this book, the 4 hour workweek, which brings me some reflection
People are not only pursuing happiness, but also excitement.
People tends to reward personal sacifice, but not personal productivity.
People should have the freedom to do whatever they like.
So what do you think about that ?
I am recently reading this book, the 4 hour workweek, which brings me some reflection
People are not only pursuing happiness, but also excitement.
People tends to reward personal sacifice, but not personal productivity.
People should have the freedom to do whatever they like.
So what do you think about that ?
Art, Shi& I
People always tell me that , left hander is good in art. But for me , I am not. I am just a normal person , who have interest in management area.
Not really have so much passion towards art. Till, this day. I received a call from Houston , saying that Amars recommend me to work as a assitant for a manager. I am suddenly stunt. Assitant????
I am not interested at all, is just sound like a boring job for me. But by the way , I am not thinking so soon of getting back to Malaysia at the moment. I would like to continue with my dream, be a really global marketer, hmm....so I decided to give a try to meet this manager.
" Hello , my name is Li Shi , I had studied in Malaysia too. Nice to meet you ."
" Hi, I am Sze Yan , a Malaysian chinese....
And the conversation goes on , I am glad to meet her , as she is not bossy , she is nice , she is talkative, have a wide horizon, studied contemporary art in Japan end UK , always visit a lot of galleries and also museums in Europe , and the lists goes on. This girl who are just older than me 4 years, had so much achievement in diffrent area. wow.... At that moment , I just feel like I really like her.
But , I did not work her after that lunch. I cant believed , how amazing it is , after one month , we are together ... in a team , for D4 project . And my role , is more than an assitant, is a collaborator, for this mega project. Shi always provides me a lot of space, for me to really work out what is the best for me.
For me , she is an art. For me , my job is an art. For me , my working environment, my life , become more artistic.
I am still on my way to learn how to appreciate art.By the way , thank God for providing me a good sister, Shi, an environment provides me space, an art + management project which bring me excitement.
Not really have so much passion towards art. Till, this day. I received a call from Houston , saying that Amars recommend me to work as a assitant for a manager. I am suddenly stunt. Assitant????
I am not interested at all, is just sound like a boring job for me. But by the way , I am not thinking so soon of getting back to Malaysia at the moment. I would like to continue with my dream, be a really global marketer, hmm....so I decided to give a try to meet this manager.
" Hello , my name is Li Shi , I had studied in Malaysia too. Nice to meet you ."
" Hi, I am Sze Yan , a Malaysian chinese....
And the conversation goes on , I am glad to meet her , as she is not bossy , she is nice , she is talkative, have a wide horizon, studied contemporary art in Japan end UK , always visit a lot of galleries and also museums in Europe , and the lists goes on. This girl who are just older than me 4 years, had so much achievement in diffrent area. wow.... At that moment , I just feel like I really like her.
But , I did not work her after that lunch. I cant believed , how amazing it is , after one month , we are together ... in a team , for D4 project . And my role , is more than an assitant, is a collaborator, for this mega project. Shi always provides me a lot of space, for me to really work out what is the best for me.
For me , she is an art. For me , my job is an art. For me , my working environment, my life , become more artistic.
I am still on my way to learn how to appreciate art.By the way , thank God for providing me a good sister, Shi, an environment provides me space, an art + management project which bring me excitement.
Friday, July 4, 2008
My two months update!!!!
I have been long time dint update my blog. No update due to I cant log into my blog, finally now I know a way to access to my blog.
Hmm , in the month of May. I had finished my transition with Mino. The transition is fun. and I have been learning a lot. And I went to Guang Zhou for APMCTC , the conference is so cool. I met Julie, Masaru, Tomo and many AIESECers.and we have room party. In Guang Zhou, I tried my first rabbit meat unconsciously.
In the month of June ,we have our first team day and team plan. We went to the spa place. I have my first culture shock with that. People bath nakedly in front of each other. But is male and female separately. and I also went to the China Ikea. The washroom there is super "clean", And i am so lucky that I am having stomache that period.
I went back to Malaysia for my VISA renewal, the chinese embassy is really "helpful" to help you. I feel being humiliated by people mistreat me.But all this should be fine , to be taken as a positive lesson.I am under financial constraint.. can be said that officially bankrupt. so anyone wish to donate money for me , I welcome you :P
OO yeah , My darling brought me to the Pavilion Fish Spa Place. ooo my gosh ., the experience is funny , i am like keep on yelling and laughing throught out my way , coz is so itchy. Darling is so brave , for letting the fish to keep on bite the dead skin. But me... i am like putting my leg for the sake of for the fish to swim around me.
I went out with Mickey also for yum cha.ooo my gosh... he is still so handsome as last time, but the thing is like I think he become more social expose. haha . DHL training really make him learn . LOL.....His blog mentioning that he might be in love. Really hope that lucky girl will be happy when she is with him..
My darling and I also went to Manhanttan Fish Market for his early birthday celebration. Although now , I could not be always calling him darling, But I am still happy that he get such a good result in the last exam. whooo... Wish him could get good future undertakings whether is in Malaysia, Dubai , or UK.
Hmm , Writing blog really make my mood become more better. Like yesterday and today , i am keep on piss off with people, but now all the anger also been released.
I miss you guys, I miss home, I miss Malaysia.
Hmm , in the month of May. I had finished my transition with Mino. The transition is fun. and I have been learning a lot. And I went to Guang Zhou for APMCTC , the conference is so cool. I met Julie, Masaru, Tomo and many AIESECers.and we have room party. In Guang Zhou, I tried my first rabbit meat unconsciously.
In the month of June ,we have our first team day and team plan. We went to the spa place. I have my first culture shock with that. People bath nakedly in front of each other. But is male and female separately. and I also went to the China Ikea. The washroom there is super "clean", And i am so lucky that I am having stomache that period.
I went back to Malaysia for my VISA renewal, the chinese embassy is really "helpful" to help you. I feel being humiliated by people mistreat me.But all this should be fine , to be taken as a positive lesson.I am under financial constraint.. can be said that officially bankrupt. so anyone wish to donate money for me , I welcome you :P
OO yeah , My darling brought me to the Pavilion Fish Spa Place. ooo my gosh ., the experience is funny , i am like keep on yelling and laughing throught out my way , coz is so itchy. Darling is so brave , for letting the fish to keep on bite the dead skin. But me... i am like putting my leg for the sake of for the fish to swim around me.
I went out with Mickey also for yum cha.ooo my gosh... he is still so handsome as last time, but the thing is like I think he become more social expose. haha . DHL training really make him learn . LOL.....His blog mentioning that he might be in love. Really hope that lucky girl will be happy when she is with him..
My darling and I also went to Manhanttan Fish Market for his early birthday celebration. Although now , I could not be always calling him darling, But I am still happy that he get such a good result in the last exam. whooo... Wish him could get good future undertakings whether is in Malaysia, Dubai , or UK.
Hmm , Writing blog really make my mood become more better. Like yesterday and today , i am keep on piss off with people, but now all the anger also been released.
I miss you guys, I miss home, I miss Malaysia.
Saturday, May 3, 2008
Bejing welcomes you !!!
I am in Beijing now, the life is really fun and nice.
How fun is it?
a.People here are friendly. It makes me feel warm.First day when I reach Hangzhou, Charlie and Mungyu who are from LC in Hangzhou pick me up. They expose me a lot about the LC reality in China and also the China culture. I met many people during my journey to Beijing.Toshiba Manager, people like Tian Tian from Zhe Jiang, Hai Zhe from Hangzhou,and his gf Qin Yan from Shanghai. They are really nice to me.And I had wait for like few hours in KFC at Hangzhou railway station for my train, I just spoke to random people for random issues. They are kind of surpise that a girl who is brave to come to China for her AIESEC journey.
b. My MC apartment is cool. We have a penthouse as our place to stay. You can get washing machine, filter, TV,and everything. But the toilet is a bit problem for me, no worries , that can be cleaned.
c. My teammates are cool people. so far , I met Houston, Alex Fat and his gf, Joachim, Mino, Steph, and Mitesh. Houston had receipt me from the train station, he is kinda of cute with his welcome notes. Alex Fat is just random as Houston, but he is smart and kinda of funny. Joachim is a guy who share the similar culture background as me , as he is a Singaporean.He is also a christian. Mino is so homiez person, both of us enjoy to stay in the appartment, and she helps me a lot in cooking. Step invited me to party, I met some Hongkies, Trainees ( now working permanent in Beijing) . We had a fun time. And Mitesh looks so young, He will be my another teacher to teach me how to cook.
Next Mon , will be my official working day. I am excited about that. To everyone in Malaysia, I am pretty well in China. Here is really cool. please visit me if you are gonna to come here. Hugs for everyone. ;)
How fun is it?
a.People here are friendly. It makes me feel warm.First day when I reach Hangzhou, Charlie and Mungyu who are from LC in Hangzhou pick me up. They expose me a lot about the LC reality in China and also the China culture. I met many people during my journey to Beijing.Toshiba Manager, people like Tian Tian from Zhe Jiang, Hai Zhe from Hangzhou,and his gf Qin Yan from Shanghai. They are really nice to me.And I had wait for like few hours in KFC at Hangzhou railway station for my train, I just spoke to random people for random issues. They are kind of surpise that a girl who is brave to come to China for her AIESEC journey.
b. My MC apartment is cool. We have a penthouse as our place to stay. You can get washing machine, filter, TV,and everything. But the toilet is a bit problem for me, no worries , that can be cleaned.
c. My teammates are cool people. so far , I met Houston, Alex Fat and his gf, Joachim, Mino, Steph, and Mitesh. Houston had receipt me from the train station, he is kinda of cute with his welcome notes. Alex Fat is just random as Houston, but he is smart and kinda of funny. Joachim is a guy who share the similar culture background as me , as he is a Singaporean.He is also a christian. Mino is so homiez person, both of us enjoy to stay in the appartment, and she helps me a lot in cooking. Step invited me to party, I met some Hongkies, Trainees ( now working permanent in Beijing) . We had a fun time. And Mitesh looks so young, He will be my another teacher to teach me how to cook.
Next Mon , will be my official working day. I am excited about that. To everyone in Malaysia, I am pretty well in China. Here is really cool. please visit me if you are gonna to come here. Hugs for everyone. ;)
Sunday, April 27, 2008
My update!!!
Wow, getting excited . Wed , is my day to leave to Beijing. First , Houston edi asked LC Hangzhou to pick me up from the air port. Perhaps , my team mate little Nemo, who call herself Fish , will be there to welcome me. I have to take 12hours train from Hangzhou to reach Beijing. Kinda of worry whether Houston can stay awake to pick me up in the early of morning on Labour day.
Labour Day is holiday for China. Hehe , perhaps I only start to work on Fri. *sweat*, but now I have to start my work, from transition to planning. Kinda a lot of work to do ,but i guess i will like it. China is the number country now in AIESEC , for my coming team , our vision is to from good to great. I guess this vision is copied from Jim Collins's book.
For coming term for AIESEC China, I will be doing Talent Management which commonly will be known as Human Resources or People Development.Now , I am still at the stage of picking up information from the AIESEC International regarding model of development and competency usage in the country. Besides that , I have been reading a lot information regarding human capital like GE Way , Toyota Way , Peter Drucker's principle on Management and Leadership. I had bought a book called First, Break All The Rules by Marcus Buckingham & Curt Coffman. Is in the series of 800 CEO read.com. The sharing will be done later with you guys, after I complete it.
This week , I have been farewell with my course mates, who are Mai Keh Keh, Yee Zheng, Yi ying, Jea Chyn , Zi Yuan. Besides that , steamboat treat from my lovely boss, Samuel , together with his sweet gf, Ming Boon , and my fellow colleagues, Slyvia, Christine and the rest. Besides that , I went for the farewell with my brothers and sisters in Kim Gary, and we went to watch the movie of Forbidden Kingdom. Movie Review please refer to my multiply blog , which is http://syanz3.multiply.com. Actually , I have one more blog there , that will be much about my walk with God and also on some reviews and events update. Feel free to visit that blog , if you have time. LOL!!! And I also went out with Eve, Mag and May. Desmond also join us during mamak session. I am gonna miss everyone of u !!
Hmm , kinda of having complicated feeling for my uni life. This three years, I have learning a lot not only from my course , but also from my friends, from my brothers , sisters in Christ, AIESEC and MagiSc.I might be always busy but actually I do want to have more time with the people around me. 25 of April is my last paper , which will decide my final end with Univerisiti Sains Malaysia. ( I got my thesis on Knowledge Sharing Intentions, if you want to read it , I can send to you.)although , I cant say that I wont be studying anymore , coz I really have interest in Management field,which I am thinking of getting Master in International Business and also PHD.
But at this moment, I really appreciate God had given so much blessing on me , to complete my degree , and guide my through out the way.
I will kinda of connect my AIESEC XP,wtih my learning in degree to what my dream job , perhaps more on Branding , Marketing , Public Relations. perhaps also on training. Perhaps I want to initiate a consulting , PR firm and providing training which will help people to develop themselves in the future. But kinda of blur for the concept,maybe working in PWC or some consulting firm to gain more experience then only start to have this ownership of company.
hmm , Another story to share, After I reach home , I have been sleeping for more than 12 hours. I sleep peacefully because is my bed , and no one disturb me. And I am with my family, kinda of like peaceful feel and happy family feel. I hope my three years time of AIESEC XP will end with more learning. And I am going to start my own unit of family with my own kids , own hubby , own house, a lot of ownership.
Sense of ownership and enterpreneur spirit is kinda of important today , not only in household , but also in organization. I hope that my international MC experience can train me in this two areas so that , I can enhance my learning experience.
On 24th of April , I also received phone call from Houston regarding attending International Trainers Congress in Ukraine. My first response was, what , In Middle East. After my darling helped me to check , only realise is a country nearby Russia and Poland. Due with the VISA issue and also financally unstable ( I spent most of my money in Asia Pacific Expro and Leadership Development Seminar in Tokyo , Japan), ITC is just halfly subsidised which i definitely do not have much to cover the cost of the rest. I guess this coming year , I cant really travel for any conferences. But hoping I can get into Talent Management Unit which is the TM team from AIESEC International , then I can contribute in the learning for the members globally ,perhaps I can visit to AI office in Rotterdam , Netherlands.And most of the cost will be covered.
Coming in this end of the May, I will be attending Asia Pacific Member Committee Transition Camp In Guang Zhou.I need to travel around 24 hours by train to reach there. Wow... I never been travel using mode of transport for so long.Will update you guys after I had spent most of my time in the train by sleeping.
Labour Day is holiday for China. Hehe , perhaps I only start to work on Fri. *sweat*, but now I have to start my work, from transition to planning. Kinda a lot of work to do ,but i guess i will like it. China is the number country now in AIESEC , for my coming team , our vision is to from good to great. I guess this vision is copied from Jim Collins's book.
For coming term for AIESEC China, I will be doing Talent Management which commonly will be known as Human Resources or People Development.Now , I am still at the stage of picking up information from the AIESEC International regarding model of development and competency usage in the country. Besides that , I have been reading a lot information regarding human capital like GE Way , Toyota Way , Peter Drucker's principle on Management and Leadership. I had bought a book called First, Break All The Rules by Marcus Buckingham & Curt Coffman. Is in the series of 800 CEO read.com. The sharing will be done later with you guys, after I complete it.
This week , I have been farewell with my course mates, who are Mai Keh Keh, Yee Zheng, Yi ying, Jea Chyn , Zi Yuan. Besides that , steamboat treat from my lovely boss, Samuel , together with his sweet gf, Ming Boon , and my fellow colleagues, Slyvia, Christine and the rest. Besides that , I went for the farewell with my brothers and sisters in Kim Gary, and we went to watch the movie of Forbidden Kingdom. Movie Review please refer to my multiply blog , which is http://syanz3.multiply.com. Actually , I have one more blog there , that will be much about my walk with God and also on some reviews and events update. Feel free to visit that blog , if you have time. LOL!!! And I also went out with Eve, Mag and May. Desmond also join us during mamak session. I am gonna miss everyone of u !!
Hmm , kinda of having complicated feeling for my uni life. This three years, I have learning a lot not only from my course , but also from my friends, from my brothers , sisters in Christ, AIESEC and MagiSc.I might be always busy but actually I do want to have more time with the people around me. 25 of April is my last paper , which will decide my final end with Univerisiti Sains Malaysia. ( I got my thesis on Knowledge Sharing Intentions, if you want to read it , I can send to you.)although , I cant say that I wont be studying anymore , coz I really have interest in Management field,which I am thinking of getting Master in International Business and also PHD.
But at this moment, I really appreciate God had given so much blessing on me , to complete my degree , and guide my through out the way.
I will kinda of connect my AIESEC XP,wtih my learning in degree to what my dream job , perhaps more on Branding , Marketing , Public Relations. perhaps also on training. Perhaps I want to initiate a consulting , PR firm and providing training which will help people to develop themselves in the future. But kinda of blur for the concept,maybe working in PWC or some consulting firm to gain more experience then only start to have this ownership of company.
hmm , Another story to share, After I reach home , I have been sleeping for more than 12 hours. I sleep peacefully because is my bed , and no one disturb me. And I am with my family, kinda of like peaceful feel and happy family feel. I hope my three years time of AIESEC XP will end with more learning. And I am going to start my own unit of family with my own kids , own hubby , own house, a lot of ownership.
Sense of ownership and enterpreneur spirit is kinda of important today , not only in household , but also in organization. I hope that my international MC experience can train me in this two areas so that , I can enhance my learning experience.
On 24th of April , I also received phone call from Houston regarding attending International Trainers Congress in Ukraine. My first response was, what , In Middle East. After my darling helped me to check , only realise is a country nearby Russia and Poland. Due with the VISA issue and also financally unstable ( I spent most of my money in Asia Pacific Expro and Leadership Development Seminar in Tokyo , Japan), ITC is just halfly subsidised which i definitely do not have much to cover the cost of the rest. I guess this coming year , I cant really travel for any conferences. But hoping I can get into Talent Management Unit which is the TM team from AIESEC International , then I can contribute in the learning for the members globally ,perhaps I can visit to AI office in Rotterdam , Netherlands.And most of the cost will be covered.
Coming in this end of the May, I will be attending Asia Pacific Member Committee Transition Camp In Guang Zhou.I need to travel around 24 hours by train to reach there. Wow... I never been travel using mode of transport for so long.Will update you guys after I had spent most of my time in the train by sleeping.
Friday, April 11, 2008
I miss those days.
I miss those days. Days with my friends, with mag , eve and may hang out in Glo , Chill Out. Miss those days went out with Joyce for movie. Miss those days that I work for Christmas and New Year eve. Miss those days where I laugh and smile with all my friends. Miss those days sleep with Ching on the same bed. Miss those days when I hang out to Kek Lok Si, to Bukit Mertajam , with Yee Zheng , Yi Yng , Chu Kwang , and Jea Chyn .
I miss a lot of those days. I thank God for I grab those days , and I appreciate every single day.
I will still appreciate every single day. Days when I just came to uni , I dont find my days meaningful. Now, I have something ,something which i call my dream , my passion, which I want to pursue in my life.
I miss those days with my darling , that we hang out in night market , staying in Cititel , for KL trip , hang out to Redang, went to Cameron, watching movies, having each other. hugging and kisses.I really want the story to keep going , till the day where people say Forever Love is there,
I miss those days with my family , tuition in aunt's house. Aerobic classes with Aunt Ee. went to market with my mum,watching TV with my family members.
I miss a lot of those days.
A new chapter is going to begin , but it does not mean the story ends here. I really hope that my Father's strength will support me in my new chapter.
I miss a lot of those days. I thank God for I grab those days , and I appreciate every single day.
I will still appreciate every single day. Days when I just came to uni , I dont find my days meaningful. Now, I have something ,something which i call my dream , my passion, which I want to pursue in my life.
I miss those days with my darling , that we hang out in night market , staying in Cititel , for KL trip , hang out to Redang, went to Cameron, watching movies, having each other. hugging and kisses.I really want the story to keep going , till the day where people say Forever Love is there,
I miss those days with my family , tuition in aunt's house. Aerobic classes with Aunt Ee. went to market with my mum,watching TV with my family members.
I miss a lot of those days.
A new chapter is going to begin , but it does not mean the story ends here. I really hope that my Father's strength will support me in my new chapter.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
Greetings from Japan !!
Dear all ,
I have seriously limited access to internet. This is because in Japan , we need to pay money for that !!! I had arrived Tokyo safely J , please forgive me if I did not reply your message , pick up your call,, ( is expensive to call or reply msg, and Japan only accept 3G phone, luckily I have it with me ) or reply your email , because every 10 mins I online , I need to pay 100 yen.
Everything is cool here. I met many different countries people , which makes me feel the world is not as big as we imagine. As an ASEAN, we share a lot of similarities in many ways. And I am really proud to be the country representative to share the ideas and seek for collaboration in this AP region, so that when these ideas turn into reality, so that we can create a positive impact in the society.
Miss you guys much.
Cheers,
Sze Yan
I have seriously limited access to internet. This is because in Japan , we need to pay money for that !!! I had arrived Tokyo safely J , please forgive me if I did not reply your message , pick up your call,, ( is expensive to call or reply msg, and Japan only accept 3G phone, luckily I have it with me ) or reply your email , because every 10 mins I online , I need to pay 100 yen.
Everything is cool here. I met many different countries people , which makes me feel the world is not as big as we imagine. As an ASEAN, we share a lot of similarities in many ways. And I am really proud to be the country representative to share the ideas and seek for collaboration in this AP region, so that when these ideas turn into reality, so that we can create a positive impact in the society.
Miss you guys much.
Cheers,
Sze Yan
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Leadership Starts Within Yourself and Motivation is the kick start.
Leadership is not something that new for everyone.But , the courage to take up as a leader is not as easy as what other people think.
Election are everywhere , country electionn , MC election , LC election , US election , but how many of us think of those people who took up the courage to apply to be a leader?We are there to criticise without thinking how much contribution that have been given by us?We are there to say everything that we want but without consider the feeling of the candidates.
For me , I never think of want to be a great leader, Perhaps is just like the text book definition , leader is someone that lead a group a people to achieve a goal.Wau , is easy , just lead a group of people , maybe just 5 or 6 of them , then to achieve a simple goal , thats finish your task.
but , until i apply to be the leading member is AIESEC Malaysia, I know that is always about responsibility , commitment and motivation.
I got enough motivation test in this semester, my VISA application got problem , my aiesec first election is a failure, my thesis is under critical stage , my study does not turn up as good as I think , my industrial training is still pending , my relationship with God is further, i am having communication problem with my friends, or even I am having problem with my family member, and my beloved one.
Every time when I thought i will be struck down by all these, but I didnt. Every time I thought I will just jump from a building to end up all my stress, but I dint. I want to be look good, i want to be looked tough , but actually deep inside , i am not. I mourn before i sleep.
is a voice inside my heart that keeps me moving. Is it God is leading me , or is it "someone" which can be a leader of myself is leading me ? I have no idea on how is it , I just know i want to keep on moving. I dont want to give up until that day which does not really to allow me to do so.
Life is like a roller coaster, is always up and down. Life is like a rhythm,where by if you like this song , you want to continue to listen again and again, By the end of the day , I am looking forward my eternal life with my Father, and I know he walks with me with my every single step.
Election are everywhere , country electionn , MC election , LC election , US election , but how many of us think of those people who took up the courage to apply to be a leader?We are there to criticise without thinking how much contribution that have been given by us?We are there to say everything that we want but without consider the feeling of the candidates.
For me , I never think of want to be a great leader, Perhaps is just like the text book definition , leader is someone that lead a group a people to achieve a goal.Wau , is easy , just lead a group of people , maybe just 5 or 6 of them , then to achieve a simple goal , thats finish your task.
but , until i apply to be the leading member is AIESEC Malaysia, I know that is always about responsibility , commitment and motivation.
I got enough motivation test in this semester, my VISA application got problem , my aiesec first election is a failure, my thesis is under critical stage , my study does not turn up as good as I think , my industrial training is still pending , my relationship with God is further, i am having communication problem with my friends, or even I am having problem with my family member, and my beloved one.
Every time when I thought i will be struck down by all these, but I didnt. Every time I thought I will just jump from a building to end up all my stress, but I dint. I want to be look good, i want to be looked tough , but actually deep inside , i am not. I mourn before i sleep.
is a voice inside my heart that keeps me moving. Is it God is leading me , or is it "someone" which can be a leader of myself is leading me ? I have no idea on how is it , I just know i want to keep on moving. I dont want to give up until that day which does not really to allow me to do so.
Life is like a roller coaster, is always up and down. Life is like a rhythm,where by if you like this song , you want to continue to listen again and again, By the end of the day , I am looking forward my eternal life with my Father, and I know he walks with me with my every single step.
Sunday, March 2, 2008
原点
这不代表现在.
一时风平浪静,一时狂风暴雨.
好讨厌这样的你.
我好失望.
我想说,让我解脱吧.
好不想让自己受委屈.
好不想让泪水往肚子里留.
我累了.
不想被你的情绪困着.
再也不想掩饰自己.
我也会不堪一击.
就让我这一个母之的女人,变得更加地无知.
我再也不想假装,装得我好好受.
但其实,我不.
你依然是我的好友.
我从没想过拥有他.
我觉得他, 不属于任和人.
可是, 如果因为我,你觉得不开心,我愿意把这分安全感还你
My new updates !!
Hola, Welcome welcome. Sorry lar, I know have been long time did not update my blog.
So here, comes all the update.
Hmm , lately, Study is busy. AIESEC is busy, busy with the second application and also going for Japan APXLDS. So , till now , everything is still fine, financial support , own self generated. Mental support , still ok ok. Hmm , a bit cant expected, coz cant imagine I am going to
Till this moment , I am stuck in my room , My city enter hospital , need to under inspection for two weeks. I miss him . He is my best darling, after my real darling.
Wednesday, February 20, 2008
Hey ,I feel tired
feel very tired, physically, like want to fall sick soon.
feeling watching movie although tomorrow got test.
please, i want to study : )
feeling watching movie although tomorrow got test.
please, i want to study : )
Sunday, February 17, 2008
Part of That World by Little Mermaid
ARIEL
(Maybe he's right. Maybe there is something the matter with me.
I just don't see how a world that makes such wonderful things could be bad.)
Look at this stuff
Isn't it neat?
Wouldn't you think my collection's complete?
Wouldn't you think I'm the girl
The girl who has everything?
Look at this trove
Treasures untold
How many wonders can one cavern hold?
Looking around here you think
Sure, she's got everything
I've got gadgets and gizmos a-plenty
I've got whozits and whatzits galore
You want thingamabobs?
I've got twenty!
But who cares?
No big deal
I want more
I wanna be where the people are
I wanna see, wanna see them dancin'
Walking around on those - what do you call 'em?
Oh - feet!
Flippin' your fins, you don't get too far
Legs are required for jumping, dancing
Strolling along down a - what's that word again?
Street
Up where they walk, up where they run
Up where they stay all day in the sun
Wanderin' free - wish I could be
Part of that world
What would I give if I could live out of these waters?
What would I pay to spend a day warm on the sand?
Bet'cha on land they understand
That they don't reprimand their daughters
Bright young women sick of swimmin'
Ready to stand
I'm ready to know what the people know
Ask 'em my questions and get some answers
What's a fire and why does it - what's the word?
Burn?
When's it my turn?
Wouldn't I love, love to explore that shore up above?
Out of the sea
Wish I could be
Part of that world
(Maybe he's right. Maybe there is something the matter with me.
I just don't see how a world that makes such wonderful things could be bad.)
Look at this stuff
Isn't it neat?
Wouldn't you think my collection's complete?
Wouldn't you think I'm the girl
The girl who has everything?
Look at this trove
Treasures untold
How many wonders can one cavern hold?
Looking around here you think
Sure, she's got everything
I've got gadgets and gizmos a-plenty
I've got whozits and whatzits galore
You want thingamabobs?
I've got twenty!
But who cares?
No big deal
I want more
I wanna be where the people are
I wanna see, wanna see them dancin'
Walking around on those - what do you call 'em?
Oh - feet!
Flippin' your fins, you don't get too far
Legs are required for jumping, dancing
Strolling along down a - what's that word again?
Street
Up where they walk, up where they run
Up where they stay all day in the sun
Wanderin' free - wish I could be
Part of that world
What would I give if I could live out of these waters?
What would I pay to spend a day warm on the sand?
Bet'cha on land they understand
That they don't reprimand their daughters
Bright young women sick of swimmin'
Ready to stand
I'm ready to know what the people know
Ask 'em my questions and get some answers
What's a fire and why does it - what's the word?
Burn?
When's it my turn?
Wouldn't I love, love to explore that shore up above?
Out of the sea
Wish I could be
Part of that world
Saturday, February 16, 2008
In the mid night with Ching
Ching is sleeping, sleep like pig,while I am working, work like shit.
I cant really relate pig and shit together, but some how, is just stuck together.
I am starving now, wish there is someone buy me supper!!!
Today , I don't feel good again. Woke up , found out that I have fever. Then , i need to take breakfast and lunch together by my own. Make up by my own. But somehow , i feel satisfied with my own make up. Work alone. Eat KFC alone, ( I bought one cute puzzle). This week money all gone. I am damn poor!!!
Took dinner with Yaomi, we have been long time dint chit chat. Have a very long nice chat. He he , feel like we should always chat together.
Been to Ching room to online.Log into blospot, facebook, Then Daryl came to tell me SECOND APPLICATION is out !!!
wa lau , but there are no EXCHANGE. some how , is expected, but i am dissapointed. thinking of applying second round , but my confidence have been shaken. Thank you for my darling who is there to give me support, makes me feel better.but by the way , i know the answer, I am definitely going for director , most probably , Strategic Initiative.
Then I met Yuki , to discuss for our APXLDS conference in Japan. have a lot to be planned , long nice chat with Daryl and Emily. cant believe that I am going out for conference!!I feel excited.
By the way , i have a lot of works have not been done.
Three tests in a row , thesis, AIESEC work.
wa lau we, i feel like dying.
Please let all these over,. i want to be free!!!
I miss my friends!!
I cant really relate pig and shit together, but some how, is just stuck together.
I am starving now, wish there is someone buy me supper!!!
Today , I don't feel good again. Woke up , found out that I have fever. Then , i need to take breakfast and lunch together by my own. Make up by my own. But somehow , i feel satisfied with my own make up. Work alone. Eat KFC alone, ( I bought one cute puzzle). This week money all gone. I am damn poor!!!
Took dinner with Yaomi, we have been long time dint chit chat. Have a very long nice chat. He he , feel like we should always chat together.
Been to Ching room to online.Log into blospot, facebook, Then Daryl came to tell me SECOND APPLICATION is out !!!
wa lau , but there are no EXCHANGE. some how , is expected, but i am dissapointed. thinking of applying second round , but my confidence have been shaken. Thank you for my darling who is there to give me support, makes me feel better.but by the way , i know the answer, I am definitely going for director , most probably , Strategic Initiative.
Then I met Yuki , to discuss for our APXLDS conference in Japan. have a lot to be planned , long nice chat with Daryl and Emily. cant believe that I am going out for conference!!I feel excited.
By the way , i have a lot of works have not been done.
Three tests in a row , thesis, AIESEC work.
wa lau we, i feel like dying.
Please let all these over,. i want to be free!!!
I miss my friends!!
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Always On My Mind
This song would like to dedicated to my beloved one, for this special day to a special valentine like you.
ALWAYS ON MY MIND
ALWAYS ON MY MIND
Maybe I didn't love you quite as good as I should have,
Maybe I didn't hold you quite as often as I could have,
Little things I should have said and done,
I just never took the time.
You were always on my mind,
You were always on my mind.
Maybe I didn't hold you all those lonely, lonely times,
And I guess I never told you, I'm so happy that you're mine,
If I made you feel second best,
I'm sorry, I was blind.
You were always on my mind,
You were always on my mind,
Tell me, tell me that your sweet love hasn't died,
Give me, give me one more chance to keep you satisfied,
If I made you feel second best,
I'm sorry, I was blind.
You were always on my mind,
You were always on my mind.
Elvis Presley
Happy Valentine's Day
I might not good in words to show how much I care, but if you look into my heart , you are always there.
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
Chinese New Year Eve and I
Today is a special day. Or should we say it like everyday is a special day out of usual day ?
woke up early in the morning , been to market with my mum and grandma. Suddenly , i feel that I should really learn how to cook. Sharing this with my friend. who just laugh at me , saying that by the age of 23, i still don't know how to cook is a cool joke.But, I seriously is a joker , who said the none of us is a joker in our own life.
Life is like a story , you are the main character as well as the story maker.
is really up to you how you want to make the story goes.
I am thinking of you again. Looking back , we have been having so many memories. But sadly say,. why all these memories wont appear to my mind after so many years. I just know i cant afford to lose you. Your call make me feel warm. If you are reading this , I would really want to apologies for anything that i done to hurt you . I know i have been very selfish , always put myself first before you. Always putting up evil princess face , asking you to do this and that. I asked myself , is that what we call happiness for both of you and me. I closed my eyes , what i can imagine is , both of us hugging each other when we sleep, Be grateful because everyday we see each other, having each other in our arms. But not , always making both of us feel stress in the sense of , maybe one of us lose our direction when we grow up. I am glad that no matter what change , your love towards me is still there .And i feel safe and confident , because you are my shelter.Dear, i just don't know how to tell you how much you mean to me , i know that by the end of the day , i just want you to be with me , no matter we are poor or whether we are sick. Is you that makes me feel, I am worthy, priceless. As you have already give your best to me , i feel that i should be doing the same, giving the best , for our future.
woke up early in the morning , been to market with my mum and grandma. Suddenly , i feel that I should really learn how to cook. Sharing this with my friend. who just laugh at me , saying that by the age of 23, i still don't know how to cook is a cool joke.But, I seriously is a joker , who said the none of us is a joker in our own life.
Life is like a story , you are the main character as well as the story maker.
is really up to you how you want to make the story goes.
I am thinking of you again. Looking back , we have been having so many memories. But sadly say,. why all these memories wont appear to my mind after so many years. I just know i cant afford to lose you. Your call make me feel warm. If you are reading this , I would really want to apologies for anything that i done to hurt you . I know i have been very selfish , always put myself first before you. Always putting up evil princess face , asking you to do this and that. I asked myself , is that what we call happiness for both of you and me. I closed my eyes , what i can imagine is , both of us hugging each other when we sleep, Be grateful because everyday we see each other, having each other in our arms. But not , always making both of us feel stress in the sense of , maybe one of us lose our direction when we grow up. I am glad that no matter what change , your love towards me is still there .And i feel safe and confident , because you are my shelter.Dear, i just don't know how to tell you how much you mean to me , i know that by the end of the day , i just want you to be with me , no matter we are poor or whether we are sick. Is you that makes me feel, I am worthy, priceless. As you have already give your best to me , i feel that i should be doing the same, giving the best , for our future.
Sunday, February 3, 2008
someone pursue happiness, someone create it
Someone pursue happiness, someone create it?
Am I the one who only know how to pursue, but never create the happiness?
or Am I the one who always create happiness but never pursue?
Before this, What is happiness? is not joy.The difference between happiness and joy is the key element of sustainability.Joy only given by God, but happiness given by people.
Yeah, sometimes, i think i pursue happiness, sometimes i think i create it.
but anyway, i hope that happiness and joy always come along with me.
I need that.
*smile*
Am I the one who only know how to pursue, but never create the happiness?
or Am I the one who always create happiness but never pursue?
Before this, What is happiness? is not joy.The difference between happiness and joy is the key element of sustainability.Joy only given by God, but happiness given by people.
Yeah, sometimes, i think i pursue happiness, sometimes i think i create it.
but anyway, i hope that happiness and joy always come along with me.
I need that.
*smile*
Rainbow World
Never expect that I will start the blog with this mood, down..sad...depress,unmotivated,....
dint expect people will come to read this blog, due with low publicity..( sorry Adele and ching, i want to write something which is more positive, but at this time , i could not, i know you guys will come to read, but , just ..)
dear all friends, who are reading this,
setting up this blog is because i need some space .. space for myself to speak...space for myself to smile...
how long that i have been not really listen to my own heart speaking? how long been i have to act strong to face challenges, I am just a normal girl. I have my emo moment , moment where i feel i need to breath in fresh air,
i want a space , just me and myself, to sing like no tomorrow , dance like there would not be other days.
Today there are two majors incident which makes me not happy.
this blog is going to show you the very negative side of me.
I quarrel with a friend, a some how friend where i think i can trust, some how friend i got a lot of expectation.
just because of something that i say , which he feel that i hurt him.I regret to say that, but i know words have been came out. how would i apologize also no use. But my intention is just want to joke. perhaps my joke is just too cold, people cant sense it. end up , we quarrel.
well , i apologize, because i dont want him to feel unhappy. but , when i read his blog, i get shock.
once again , disappointment comes from friends. I hate this, the blog is totally with red, yellow, the colour which i hate the most. I saw many people leave comments, i feel sad. Tears coming to
me , and i start to really hate it, never feel that i will be like that. you know somehow as a Christian , sometimes , i just need to be forgiven. but , seriously , i am piss. piss with what the blog wrote. piss with the blogger, piss with the response.at this moment, i understand. understand that I am being maybe too over. but , i just feel that , the blogger do not need to hate me till he wrote that you know like some how...sigh..i just dont know how to put in words, but i just feel not not not not not not not not not happy, when i type so many not , i heart become cold.Tears again come to me.i just feel sad, sad, sad, sad, sad, sad, sad, sad, sad, sad, sad.
This blog will serve a very good platform , to reveal my real self , instead of my another blog.
second, feedback from my team mates. even this drive me just become more demotivated. giving much for what i am passion, asking for the minimal return , end up ,i dont even feel that my effort being appreciated. being in a team , distance drives me , perhaps just a invisible person, i feel that i am being neglected. feeling lost , lost whether should i take up the challenge.
saying so much things , by the end of the day , i make a decision, i want to stay in a world where by is only me, me alone. i dont want to talk to any person at this moment.there are rainbow in my world, there wont be rainy day.
by the way , thanks for my family members, my friends , my dear who always be with me. I finally found out, the world can change everyday , but these people can always be with you , no matter what happen.
thats all i want to say.
Good night to myself.
dint expect people will come to read this blog, due with low publicity..( sorry Adele and ching, i want to write something which is more positive, but at this time , i could not, i know you guys will come to read, but , just ..)
dear all friends, who are reading this,
setting up this blog is because i need some space .. space for myself to speak...space for myself to smile...
how long that i have been not really listen to my own heart speaking? how long been i have to act strong to face challenges, I am just a normal girl. I have my emo moment , moment where i feel i need to breath in fresh air,
i want a space , just me and myself, to sing like no tomorrow , dance like there would not be other days.
Today there are two majors incident which makes me not happy.
this blog is going to show you the very negative side of me.
I quarrel with a friend, a some how friend where i think i can trust, some how friend i got a lot of expectation.
just because of something that i say , which he feel that i hurt him.I regret to say that, but i know words have been came out. how would i apologize also no use. But my intention is just want to joke. perhaps my joke is just too cold, people cant sense it. end up , we quarrel.
well , i apologize, because i dont want him to feel unhappy. but , when i read his blog, i get shock.
once again , disappointment comes from friends. I hate this, the blog is totally with red, yellow, the colour which i hate the most. I saw many people leave comments, i feel sad. Tears coming to
me , and i start to really hate it, never feel that i will be like that. you know somehow as a Christian , sometimes , i just need to be forgiven. but , seriously , i am piss. piss with what the blog wrote. piss with the blogger, piss with the response.at this moment, i understand. understand that I am being maybe too over. but , i just feel that , the blogger do not need to hate me till he wrote that you know like some how...sigh..i just dont know how to put in words, but i just feel not not not not not not not not not happy, when i type so many not , i heart become cold.Tears again come to me.i just feel sad, sad, sad, sad, sad, sad, sad, sad, sad, sad, sad.
This blog will serve a very good platform , to reveal my real self , instead of my another blog.
second, feedback from my team mates. even this drive me just become more demotivated. giving much for what i am passion, asking for the minimal return , end up ,i dont even feel that my effort being appreciated. being in a team , distance drives me , perhaps just a invisible person, i feel that i am being neglected. feeling lost , lost whether should i take up the challenge.
saying so much things , by the end of the day , i make a decision, i want to stay in a world where by is only me, me alone. i dont want to talk to any person at this moment.there are rainbow in my world, there wont be rainy day.
by the way , thanks for my family members, my friends , my dear who always be with me. I finally found out, the world can change everyday , but these people can always be with you , no matter what happen.
thats all i want to say.
Good night to myself.
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